John 14:13 (New International Version) New International Version (NIV)
13And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father. ------------------------------ Thank God I'm able to blog again. I was crippled during the past days with problems in the cell that I lost my appetite for writing for a while. This month is a month of thanksgiving for me. I finally realized what the Lord has been teaching me. I was so preoccupied by too much self-pity and regret that I was unaware that the Lord has already answered one of my requests: He has returned the joy of my salvation... It was there all along, but depression caused by selfishness and failed expectations overshadowed it for a long time.
I remember clearly how God reminded me to pray... Lately, it has been the topic of every message i've heard may it be on television, radio, or even in church. It has also been the topic here in in-touch.org for a week already. Just recently, our pastor invited us to watch a very powerful message about it. It's really obvious now, that my God wants me to talk to Him. He wants to hear about my problems, my burdens, my failures, my joys, my frustrations...everything.
I'm just overwhelmed that a great God like him wanted my attention. Aslan in the chronicles of narnia magnified the love that I have for Jesus. I'll talk about Narnia in my future posts. After reading 2 of the said books, I resolved that my relationship with the Lord won't get affected by people, but recently, a sad incident almost crippled my pledge. Bagilu, one of my most faithful contacts had been severely wounded by a broken relationship and i felt that it affected his commitment. It even affected the way he spoke to me. Again, I felt abandoned. I was always confident about Bagilu since I started a Comsci Cell group. He was there when I thought that I lost all my contacts (2 years ago probably) and helped me back up. With God's help, he and I, followed up comsci students back then and I thank God that they grew in grace and are now regular cell mates and friends. Having heard of his decision broke my spirit. At first i felt angry, but it gradually turned into sorrow. I prayed for him, very not like what I did before when I had this sort of trouble, and God was faithful to bring him back. God also reconditioned my thoughts and revealed that Bagilu's decision might be for the sake of bearing fruit. If that's the case, then I will fully support him.
First-Born and MD accompanied me at my Aunt's house last night and there they studied tirelessly for hours to make preparations for their exam later. There at my old room, as I lay in bed, a great burden for my 3 contacts, E1,E2, and B-man fell upon me and eventually caused me to pray. I know that among my cell mates they are the ones who received the least of my attention, that's probably why i can't see any monumental developments in their spiritual lives although they did well in our programming trainings. I have so many plans regarding praying for my contacts, I just hope that I can make them all happen. I am confident that with prayer, all of them would grow up to be fine Christians. My highschool friends... I've had a lot of misgivings about them for the past months. But the Lord embarrassed me when three of them helped me during the darkest times of my life this year. I praise God for Smarty, C.S. Jr, and Bookworm. I have been learning a lot from them lately and the hope of having a God-centered fellowship with them in the future was rekindled.
Anyway, that's all for today. Bagilu will be staying with me at my Aunt's place for the night. I'm excited about his plans regarding his ministry at his workplace.
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